Sober October Journal- day 19

Hey everyone! Nineteen days! Woo! I am getting closer to the Sober October finish line.

If you are just jumping on board, I started the challenge earlier than October 1st. It just felt better in my mind to start the challenge on a Monday (9/28) versus that Thursday the 1st. Obviously I am neurotic. πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈ But it made more sense somehow to start early to make the weeks seem ..even. So here I am on day 19 out of 35.

Ugh..did I say 35?
Woke up feeling pretty great and I can see my old body under there coming back..slowly.

Day 19 has been another busy work day. My mind wandered a lot, per usual, so I listened to my favorite true crime YouTube channels to focus. So, this has become a real obsession of mine lately. Listening to murder mysteries and stuff. My whole family murmurs at me because I can’t stop sharing the stories I learn about. Whatever we are talking about I will find a way to loop it into what I just heard that day or week.

I became obsessed with true crime stories even more after reading Michelle McNamara’s book during this covid19 quarantine. Her book, I’ll Be Gone in the Dark, left me with so many questions. The maddening research that she did on to trying to figure out the serial rapist/murderer was thrilling. Every rehashed story. Every person she interviews. All the dead ends, but they had to lead somewhere. Which it did.

🚨 π•Šπ•‘π• π•šπ•π•–π•£ 𝕒𝕝𝕖𝕣π•₯ 𝕒𝕙𝕖𝕒𝕕 🚨

In real life, after her book was published, the world got to meet the man in the dark who was named the Golden State Killer. I won’t spoil how they figured it out!

I got through her book quickly; it took me ignoring everything around me to get through it in a day πŸ˜†. After I finished it, immediately I went down many rabbit holes over days that turned into weeks, trying to learn as much as I could about the caught Golden State Killer, her killer. All this madness led me to where I am now. Listening daily to stories of true crimes, some solved but most unresolved.

Why do I keep listening? Murder mysteries give me the creeps but I can’t not listen. My mind goes crazy trying to figure out who done it or putting the puzzle together of the why. Or wondering why a person takes the murder road over a more normal resolution. Maybe I feel like I can learn something? How people function? How to avoid being murdered? Maybe to watch for the signs? No story is cookie cut, so it’s baffling. And always sad.

Sorry my mind went down this road. I am laughing because I brought up murder mysteries even on here! I do have a problem! πŸ˜‚

Well, it is time for me to start dinner as I listen to another murder mystery story! Thank you for reading today! Till next time. Xo

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