👻 𝕳𝖆𝖕𝖕𝖞 𝕳𝖆𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖜𝖊𝖊𝖓!! 💀
Good morning, everyone!
So, I am sitting here with three shots of tequila in front of me …noooo!!! I am just kidding!
Today is THE last day of Sober October, and my favorite holiday. Which, I am pretty happy about! Today marks the end of 32 days of listening to myself saying no to alcohol and junk food, eating consciously and being more active. It is funny how I was making the conscious decisions at the beginning, then eventually, came to not need that internal dialogue at all.
There were moments that were easy, then some that challenged me beyond my comfort zones. I felt emotions more and didn’t realize that I do have a grumpy side! I learned that I can live and celebrate days without a glass of wine to feel it was complete. Which at dinner some nights felt like a big loss. Especially, when I had made some of my favorite meals that paired with all of the beautiful wines in our basement.
That’s where I put all but two bottles of wine that we own for this month. The two I kept upstairs were in strategic places. One by my Nespresso machine and one on the counter where I leave all of my day-to-day things, like chargers, keys, sunglasses, and what not. I left these bottles out because I felt like living without it in my sights would be dumb and not real. I mean, temptations are real and if I was weak grabbing for it, someone would notice. Mainly, my husband. Luckily, not a time came where I even gave them a second glance! Woo. I am awesome, I know. Haha.
Tonight will be here before we know it, and Halloween night usually comes with a good ‘brilliant’ celebratory round or two (or four) of cocktails and candy. But like I said in my last post, I feel so good that I may skip drinks tonight. Maybe wait till Saturday night when we are at the Halloween party at our friends.
Which I am excited for.
The party not the booze. I can’t wait to put on my fun costume with my husband and see all of our friends!! We rarely pair up for a couple’s costume but we both thought this duo would be a good one. I will definitely share all the fun after Sunday.
Tonight’s costume is still up in the air. My town moved trick o’treating really early, because they had found an EEE mosquito this Summer. On top of an early night, this is the first year my oldest daughter is going out alone with her friends. Which may ‘trigger’ drinking. Jk jk. So we are taking our youngest out with her besties. Which means I will have a short window to put something together after they get home from school. I may go full on sugar calavera or witch or just wear these shiny mermaid leggings I just bought and some makeup to match, I have to figure that out with timing and work. Which, work is a beast of stress this week, too. Though I am not letting it get to me. I just cannot take that stress home with me.
So yeah. It’s the last day. I gave up drinking for a month and surprisingly, it changed me. I feel good. My face shows it. My body shows it. Now, I am not saying that I am giving up drinking for life but I do feel differently about drinking. Especially, my feelings of how much I let drinking evolve to become a daily habit. I don’t want it to be my daily habit. Moderation. It is that term thrown around so much when talking about alcohol, but dammit, it’s a saying for reason. And moderation is where I want to live.
Thanks for following along, guys. I appreciate all of the good vibes through this Sober October. It helped keep my motivation up.
Bye for now. xoxo 💋